You go through certain moments in your life and almost instantly know that something…somewhere inside of you is never going to be the same. The mind registers it…and so does your body…and it rattles your entire being… It changes something so inherent in you that it defies your own definition of you… and you are not the same… You feel your own absence…but somehow you also know that you are not incomplete… You are furthest from who you were…but kind of exactly right where you need to be… You don’t see all the things happening as instantly, but you can sense the disintegration…the discoloration…the diffusion of yourself… You can see those newly built parts of you…while still sensing the parts that have been torn away… You don’t understand it…but here you are…all pieced together… That inexplicable feeling…that you feel…the same one that leaves you speechless but brings voice to the silent chaos in your mind…the same one that causes you to stumble but makes you step rig...