You go through certain moments in your life and almost
instantly know that something…somewhere inside of you is never going to be the
same. The mind registers it…and so does your body…and it rattles your entire
being…
It changes something so inherent in you that it defies your own definition of you…and you are not the same…
You feel your own absence…but somehow you also know that you are not incomplete…
You are furthest from who you were…but kind of exactly right where you need to be…
You don’t see all the things happening as instantly, but you can sense the disintegration…the discoloration…the diffusion of yourself…
You can see those newly built parts of you…while still sensing the parts that have been torn away…
You don’t understand it…but here you are…all pieced together…
That inexplicable feeling…that you feel…the same one that leaves you speechless but brings voice to the silent chaos in your mind…the same one that causes you to stumble but makes you step right in line…the same feeling that makes you question your existence but answers your questions about life…
It is perplexing…it creates a frenzy but also leaves you feeling calm…you want to control it and stop it...but you also want it to keep happening...a kind of internal tug-o-war...
I have been there. I know we all have.
I have realized the best way to deal with this mysterious state of being…is to open yourself to the possibilities...to let it happen…to let it run its course…
No use fighting battles with yourself…there are no winners…
Embrace the mystery…accept the enigma that you are because it is in that moment when you open yourself to receive...when you adapt…you transform and morph into your new self…and that moment...
That feeling…is what transpires when you EVOLVE...
That is the moment YOU…become more YOU.
PS: Sis ~ Evolving everyday over here just as you are up there.
It changes something so inherent in you that it defies your own definition of you…and you are not the same…
You feel your own absence…but somehow you also know that you are not incomplete…
You are furthest from who you were…but kind of exactly right where you need to be…
You don’t see all the things happening as instantly, but you can sense the disintegration…the discoloration…the diffusion of yourself…
You can see those newly built parts of you…while still sensing the parts that have been torn away…
You don’t understand it…but here you are…all pieced together…
That inexplicable feeling…that you feel…the same one that leaves you speechless but brings voice to the silent chaos in your mind…the same one that causes you to stumble but makes you step right in line…the same feeling that makes you question your existence but answers your questions about life…
It is perplexing…it creates a frenzy but also leaves you feeling calm…you want to control it and stop it...but you also want it to keep happening...a kind of internal tug-o-war...
I have been there. I know we all have.
I have realized the best way to deal with this mysterious state of being…is to open yourself to the possibilities...to let it happen…to let it run its course…
No use fighting battles with yourself…there are no winners…
Embrace the mystery…accept the enigma that you are because it is in that moment when you open yourself to receive...when you adapt…you transform and morph into your new self…and that moment...
That feeling…is what transpires when you EVOLVE...
That is the moment YOU…become more YOU.
PS: Sis ~ Evolving everyday over here just as you are up there.
Pooja, this touched every aspect of my being. The way through, is the Only Way. With Faith, we arrive. I loved how clearly you expressed 'That' which is quite difficult to express (at least, in our 'normal' human terminology ). I can sense Prachi smiling in agreement. Here's to Becoming More!
ReplyDeleteThank you! Really appreciate you spending time to read :). And yes - I am hoping that Prachi is smiling and those resonate with all of us!
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